The man who made Nikki Carroll’s life hell said his violent crimes “will haunt me for the rest of my life”.
The Fintry mum was told she was ugly, unlovable and was beaten and bloodied to the point of unconsciousness. That was what she considered normal.
Although their relationship ended in 2009, Nikki was finally able to see Daniel Mudie – the man responsible for abusing her – hauled into the dock of Dundee Sheriff Court this year for his actions.
Nikki thought her prayers were answered when Mudie was sentenced to four-and-a-half years in prison.
But her attacker spent only weeks behind bars after successfully appealing against his sentence – as revealed by the Tele last month.
Nikki, 38, was left devastated by the news after only receiving official notification days after the decision.
Mudie spoke to the Tele after he was released early from his four-and-half year prison sentence.
He insisted he had turned his life around and was not the same person who used to beat his partner.
“I am so sorry for what I did. It will haunt me for the rest of my life,” Mudie said.
“I know I was violent and I completely regret how I behaved.
“I know I will never be able to make amends for what I did but I can try.
“I’m not that person any more and I’m going to lead a different life.”
He said that when he committed the assaults he was suffering from mental health and anger issues and was hooked on class A drugs.
“I’m not that person any more. I’ve had anger management counselling and I’ve not taken drugs for years,” he said.
“I have also been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, schizophrenia and post-traumatic stress disorder following abuse when I was a child.
“I’m now on medication and working hard to live a different life.”
Mudie added that nobody was more shocked than he was when it was decided he would be released from prison. “I only learned three weeks ago that this was going back to court,” he said.
“I wasn’t the person who started the process. We were not objecting to the fact I was jailed but to the length of the sentence and the fact that my efforts to turn my life around had not been taken into account.
“My solicitors argued that the efforts I had made to change my behaviour hadn’t been taken into account when I was sentenced.
“When the judges heard of my efforts they obviously decided that i could be released and punished in a different way.
“I thought at best I might get about seven months taken off to bring my time in prison down below four years.
“I am going to make the most of this opportunity. I’m going to go back to college and return to the voluntary work I was doing.
“I’ve passed my mental health awareness exams and I want to try to help others.
“I don’t expect people to forgive me and I’m not making excuses for my behaviour.”